“I’ll Learn How to Sway.”
Well hello! It has been a long, long time but I am finally back! Life has been crazy hectic with finals, moving back, and now working that I have not had the time to write to you all. I promise the posts will be more consistent now. I have been reflecting quite a bit recently with life, accomplishments, and the future, but can I be honest? I have been feeling a little stuck with what to write and how to connect with you all. I just decided to be unmotivated and let it come to me…it never came to me. Until I was listening to Kacey Musgrave's song, Sway.
“Maybe one day
I'll learn how to sway
Like a palm tree in the wind
I won't break, I'll just bend
And I'll sway
I'll sway”
I think we all reach a point in our lives where we try so hard to not act like we are not affected by the different waves of life. We freak out when we act out of our routines. We have a sweet treat? Nope, I have to run 3 miles tomorrow to burn it off. I was invited to go to a party but don’t know the people that well? Nope, I have to stay home because the people there won’t talk to me. You want to look into different career avenues? Nope, I can’t that’s out of my comfort zone. The list goes on and on and on.
Until, this Kacey song really opened my eyes on how I started to view everything. I think the beauty of having one life is that you can do whatever you want and create the most amazing memories and stories to tell down the line. I was given the opportunity to study abroad in Florence, Italy. I was not going to take it. Because the first thoughts going through my brain were, “I need to find a job/internship”, “I am going to miss out on opportunities with friends at home”, “I won’t see my family”, “My ENTIRE routine is going to change.” But, what about the amazing routine that could be created? Listening to the old church bells on the streets of Italy as you walk to your history class in historic plazas. Being able to plan trips to different countries, learning about the insanely diverse cultures that are so beautiful and unique. Being in tune with your families roots. Lastly, getting to meet a group of college students that are in the same position as me….get ready for some pretty amazing posts in September to December from the heart of Florence.
I was speaking to my dad a few months ago about 2026 goals, my number one goal was: getting comfortable with being uncomfortable. As Kacey says, learning how to sway. I believe one of the biggest under appreciated emotions humans feel is embarrassment. BE EMBARRASSED! My goodness, we are all trying to navigate our lives in our own ways. Do not try to hide or silence parts of yourself just because society has programmed us to believe they are embarrassing or uncomfortable. I had to completely restart this past semester, with making friends, registering in classes, navigating jobs, and restart getting to know myself. I joined club basketball to meet people, when I tell you I was so nervous. But because I put myself in this “uncomfortable” position, I actually met some of the nicest people. I started this blog to talk about mental health! I was so nervous! It was so worth it. I started attending poetry club meetings, where you write for an hour then share what you wrote. Again, a scary/uncomfortable experience that ended up being so worth it. I acted in my friend’s short film for her film class, something I was so nervous for, but had the best time because it was with friends.
So, I want all of us to try and learn to “sway” with the motions of life. Do something that may be a little challenging or “uncomfortable” to try and push yourself a bit. If you embarrass yourself in the process, who cares. Laugh it off! I want to know what you guys do and how it went, so feel free to comment or even let me know privately on the blogs Instagram. It feels good to write to you all again, until next time.
-Kiera <3
